New Heart

Today I did a lot of things except for my own work. I only manage to do some corrections on my paper and then the computer went blank. I was on the phone when it happened and thus couldn’t care much. Later, when I tried to open the computer again..panic starts creeping in. Alhamdulillah with the help of friends and my hubby I manage to recover most of my files but I cannot rely on the computer anymore. Another test to rely my hope and happiness onto Allah..REDHA.

A friend of mine called from far. She always call me…sometimes during the day and sometimes even at night. I am always happy to hear her voice but everytime she called she always have issues. Poor her..to some people the test are even greater to get to the road of success. I should count my blessings.

The issues are different for each person. And how people adjust and counter the issues also differs. That makes each individual unique. We may get the same test from Allah but how we interpret, how we encounter and react may make it different in the end. And we came out of the problem a different person. I always admire my friend because she is so strong even when she said she’s not. I know she will get by very well in the end.

Allah gave me chances to go through my life looking through other peoples glasses. I knew now that I always learned from other peoples experiences and thus try not to make the same mistake. I did my very best not to knock myself in the head and learn that I had to duck to avoid problem. And thus that is my problem in the end. I learned from other peoples mistakes therefore I seldom encounter my own problem. Hence when I face one..my reactions were hazardous to other people and to myself. I have to get to know myself again. I am praying for a new heart because the one I am having is not my heart anymore.

So please ALLAH ..i beg for forgiveness and a new heart for this NEW YEAR 1431.

MAAL HIJRAH 1431